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My BLT (Biggest Little Teacher) has been taking singing lessons for a few months now, and loves it!  Her teacher is a professional singer and has created a children’s choir that will be performing at a professional venue for Christmas.  BLT is beside herself excited!  It has been apparent for many years that BLT loves to sing, dance, and perform.  Yet, when I ask her what she wants to do when she grows up she replies, “I don’t know”.

The other day we were chatting and she began to tell me about how she does her warm up scales with her singing teacher at the beginning of each lesson.  BLT began to speak as if she were alone in the car and proceeded to tell me, “Sometimes when I sing I just pay attention to the notes and I watch the keys on the piano…and then….I like…become part of the piano…Sometimes when I’m tired I just go into the music and I will all of a sudden know the lines.

Ahhhhh, I was in love listening to her subconscious take over and spill out of her like a flowing river.  When she finished speaking she was quiet for a moment and said, “Wow, I don’t know where that came from!” and began to laugh.  I asked her, “So do you want to sing when you grow up?” and she said, “I don’t know.”  Feeling frustrated I wondered how could she not know?  Isn’t it obvious????  Then I thought, maybe I’ve been asking the wrong question.  BLT knows what she wants to do right now, in this moment – not 10 years into the future.  All that matters is right now.  Passion is felt right now. Sure it can be followed, but not forced.  Now wonder she doesn’t  know!LOL!  Maybe what she becomes 10 years from now is not really important.

All I could think about that day was how amazing it must feel to become the music, the piano, the notes.  I tried to think back to a time when I’d lost myself in something I absolutely loved, because “that” would be my true passion… A place where the “shoulds” did not exist.  A place BLT knows all about.

Thank you BLT once again for reminding me of what is important in life!!!

To you readers, may you enjoy this Thanksgiving Holiday by being in the moment.  Blessings!

My Biggest Little Teacher (BLT) has a love and a flair for art in all arenas.  Today, for the first time she actually used a suggestion I threw out regarding a piece of art she was working on… well, if you consider decorating a brand new hairbrush “art”.  She felt that her ornate “J” looked more like an “S”, and I suggested a small change to the tail of the “J”.  A few minutes later I heard her say out loud from the back seat, “Thanks for the suggestion.”  I was a bit shocked and asked, “So you used my idea?”  She said “yes” and went back to what she was doing.

I thought for a moment and in an audible conversation with myself said, “Well, I bet I could suggest anything to you and you could make it beautiful. The only beautiful thing I’ve ever made was you.”  I could see her smile in the rear view mirror.  I continued, “Well, I didn’t do it on my own, God did most of the work.”  She responded quickly, “You are still creating beauty.”  “Huh?” I said dumbfounded.  “Mom, you are still creating beauty.”  I asked “How?”  She said, “You teach me to be a better person, that is beauty.” I hear her words and want to cry. In my most humble of tones I tell her, “I hope that is what I do.  I try to be the best guide I can be.”  She senses I’m getting teary and says, “Well, it can be fun too.  It doesn’t have to always be so serious.”  Ah-ha!  The big reminder!  So we talked about life being both fun and serious, and if it were serious or fun all the time, life would not be very well-rounded.  She nodded her head and went back to her hair brush art.

Sometimes I wonder how the heck she figures these things out at age 9, and then I remember how most kids these days have this brilliant clarity and knowing that seems so grown up for such little bodies.  I love taking time to listen to the children, as they are the genuine keepers of truth and knowledge!

Even though I am the first to console someone whose had a bad day by telling them, “We all have days like that”,  I forget to apply it to myself.  That is until my Biggest Little Teacher (BLT) gives me a whopping reminder right between the eyes!!!

Last week was energetically rough for me.  Work was overly demanding, money issues, scheduling issues – you name it, I felt overwhelmed.  On one particular day my fella had a really rough day too, and when we came together that evening there was no room for error or understanding.  Basically, we snapped!  Dinner was very quiet except for BLT’s sweet voice telling all kinds of stories.  But on this day, her stories could not jar us out of our self pitying egos.  The three of us uncharacteristically spent the entire evening in our own spaces – separated.  My fella spent the evening in the bedroom reading, while BLT and I remained in her room doing homework.  The evening ended, and my fella and I went to bed angry.

Morning came and I felt horrible for the massive tension I’d created for BLT and the family in general.  By 6:30 am I decided to put my ego back in its sheath, and waive the white flag.  Before BLT awoke, I swallowed my pride, apologized to my fella, and made peace with a tight kiss and a good bye as he left for work.  Feeling sure I’d made BLT very uncomfortable the night before, I went in to wake her up and talk to her a bit before the day began.

She woke with a good attitude, which is not always the case for this night owl, and we spoke about the upcoming day.  I gently began to apologize for the evening events prior and explained, “Man, I apologize for being so grouchy yesterday.  I was really feeling angry and overwhelmed. I was even irritated with Sunny” (That is what she calls my fella).  She looked at me a little surprised and said, “Irritated with him about what?”  I thought, “oh no, why did I bother to bring this up, she didn’t even notice!”  But, since I opened the bag, I had to round up the cat…  “I was just irritated with him because of all my stuff going on. I simply lost my patience. I was having a really bad day.”  BLT, looked at me with soft deep brown eyes and said, “Well mom, everyone has days like that. Today will be better.”  I cannot lie, I was shocked!  BLT seemed so mature and aligned it was as if God were smacking me directly!!!  I smiled at BLT and gave her a big hug.  She looked up at me again and said, “Yeah, everyone has days like that once in a while.”

I do hope this reminder will assist you when you have one of those “days like that”.

All my best,

Jennifer

Today, while getting ready for yet another deliriously busy day I was suddenly struck with the “grass is always greener” syndrome.  My mind was in the middle of a true spin out (pity party really), when a person I know flashed before me.  This particular person embodies a level of freedom I’ve not known since I was in my 20’s and I began to feel envious.  This person has a great job with good pay and awesome benefits along with an incredibly flexible schedule.  This person lives alone, has no one to answer to or take care of outside of work.  This person travels regularly and consistently just about anywhere in the world whenever the whim arises.  As my thoughts proliferated on this persons life,  the more I silently complained about mine.  I took the complaining to an new level of utter distaste for the choices I’d made in my life.

Then, as if God tapped me on the forehead with a lightening bolt, I began to see the gifts my costly choices had left me.  The biggest and most amazing gift – my daughter!  I thought, “Oh my gosh, had I never taken such huge risks and made such tough choices, I would never have known the kind of love I’d experienced in the last 9 years.  I would never have grown spiritually to the degree I have.  I would never have known what it means to give a piece of my life for someone or something greater than myself, and feel joy beyond words.”  Within seconds I was happier than I’d been in a long time.  I knew without a doubt, I’d never trade my life today for the “freedom” of yesterday.  Freedom and the amount of green in the grass is truly a state of mind.

Today while re-reading “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success” by Deepak Chopra, I was reminded of the true meaning of Success.  Even though I know this in my head, it has not fully expanded to my heart and therefore I forget!  Sometimes I get driven by things that do not matter because I have an old fear- based program that tells me success is “the ability to make a good monetary living.”  Then I think back to four short years ago when I was told by my doctor, “You are very lucky to be alive young lady”, and I realize all the money in the world would not have made a difference to my mind, body, or spirit in that moment.  As a refresher, I wanted to share a couple paragraphs from Deepak’s book.  May you feel peace hearing these truths.

“There are many aspects to success; material wealth is only one component.  Moreover, success is a journey, not a destination.  material abundance, in all its expressions, happens to be one of those things that makes the journey more enjoyable.  But success also includes good health, energy and enthusiasm for life, fulfilling relationships, creative freedom, emotional and psychological stability, a sense of well-being, and peace of mind.

Even with the experience of all these things, we will remain unfulfilled unless we nurture the seeds of divinity inside us. In reality, we are divinity in disguise, and the gods and goddesses in embryo that are contained within us seek to be fully materialized.  True success is therefore the experience of the miraculous.  It is the unfolding of the divinity within us.  It is the perception of divinity wherever we go, in whatever we perceive – in the eyes of a child, in the beautify of a flower, in the flight of a bird.  When we begin to experience our life as the miraculous expression of divinity – not occasionally, but al the time – then we will know the true meaning of success.” ~ Deepak Chopra, “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success”

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