I get out of bed on Tuesday morning feeling peaceful and refreshed. Life seems to have slowed down a bit and I deal with my daughters sluggish movement with patience and creativity. We actually leave the house on time and she makes it to school a few minutes early. Whew, that was a breeze! I handle work tasks easily and efficiently and notice I have extra time to meet a girlfriend I’ve not seen in ages for lunch. Feeling very happy and pleased, I confirm our lunch date.
I’m on the 5 freeway headed back home, minding my own business and listening to NPR. I’m cruising at a cool 75 mph. There is an SUV in front of me and I see it suddenly tap its breaks and I notice debris on the road and see a ladder fly out from under it. I feel like scene is happening at 1,000 mph, yet I notice every detail. The ladder is parallel with the lines in the road so I figure I should hit it in the center of my car so as not to hit a tire or axel and loose total control of my vehicle. Maybe, just maybe I will clear it. Well, no such luck! I hit the ladder and it makes the most horrible crushing sound in the front and under my car, and dust/smoke comes in through the vents. My heart begins to race and I can’t seem to grasp any details. Somehow I make my way to the emergency lane without hitting anyone as my car makes this ugly scraping noise over the pavement. I wonder if the ladder is still stuck and dread seeing the damage. Is the radiator smashed? OH man!
One of my worst fears is to be a sitting duck on the freeway. My lovely mind decides to replay every scary image I’ve seen on TV where a semi careens off the road and hits a parked car in the emergency lane. I’m nervous and terrified. My hands shake uncontrollably as I dial for help. I make all the necessary phone calls while I keep my eyes fixated on the rear-view mirror. I put the phone down and begin to worry that I’m too nervous and 4 months pregnant. I need to calm down, if not for me, then for the baby. I take inventory on the meditation/prayer tools I have and start with some deep breathing, focusing on the exhale. With my eyes closed, I feel a little better. I start to pray, begging for safety and help! A story about Faith pops into my head and I suddenly remember that I do not have to be in control of this, there is an entire Universe of things out of my control. I remember I can give this up to my Higher Power and rest in faith. My prayer shifts to, “Ok God, I trust no matter what happens You will take care of me. If I’m suppose to get hit, will you just make it as painless as possible?” Physical shifts begin to happen… my heart is finding its pace, my hands are beginning to steady and my breathing is easy. I take a few seconds to do the creative meditation I teach and love.
I open my eyes and tentatively take a peek at the rear view mirror. My mouth drops in astonishment when I see a CHP doing a round robin to close off the freeway about 1/2 mile back. No way! I could hardly believe how quickly that worked! Instantly, I was calm and focused.
I have to admit, this prayer and meditation stuff really does work! It doesn’t always happen instantly, but it does happen. Today, I am eternally grateful to my Higher Power and the tools in my bag.
May you find peace and faith in the tools you have acquired!
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