Here is a little Guided Meditation I put together this year:
So, its been an enlightening, frightening, and soul loving journey. The last 8 years after my Western Medicine diagnosis of “probable Stroke”, I have been lead to all sorts of holistic healing modalities. From John of God, to Ayurvedic medicine, to Naturopaths, to Reiki and Energy Healing, to EFT, to Hypnosis, etc. I have also been keeping a watchful eye on the Peer Reviewed Journals of Medical Testing and the cold hard science. I would say its been a very “integrated Medicine” type of path. Last week I received a new “diagnosis” and to be honest, it came from my inner knowing.
I have been praying for 8 years to find a reason for the numbness in my left side and why at times it gets a little worse and then there are times when its almost non-existent. Years of chiropractic were helpful for the symptoms, yet I could not get to that place of permanent healing. I had always felt I needed more work in my spiritual and mental arena. I am a firm believer that my subconscious beliefs and patterns are very powerful and can either elevate me or hinder my success. With that said, I have been on a strong spiritual path this year. I have become very tuned into my body and my emotions as they come up – not after I am knocked down on the ground by a major illness!
This year I also became very aware of how many people I knew were being diagnosed with Lymes Disease. Two weeks ago, I asked my Naturopath to test me for it. She asked me, “Why”? I told her because this illness keeps coming into my awareness and I do exhibit some symptoms. My naturopath muscle tested me and it was a “maybe”. She sent me to the lab saying, “We can test you for the antibodies, but I don’t sense you have it.” A week later in her office, she says, “You should really trust your intuition because the blood work shows you have signs of Lymes Disease.” Because the accuracy of the Lymes Disease tests are full of False Negatives, it is difficult to assess. But, the route she took shows there is definitely something depleting my immune system. More testing will need to be done, and we are starting with some herbs to clear and heal my body.
When I was told about the results, I had a combination of feelings; depressed, sad, scared and relieved! I was depressed that I had waited so long to find out this information and what I could have done 8 years ago for my healing. I was scared to find out there is something physically “wrong” with me. I am sad, just because I feel sad and yet, I was relieved to my core to have some sort of answer. Needless to say, I have been an emotional wreck this week.
On a positive note, I am deeply grateful for my body’s natural ability to heal, because for the last 8 years I have done Cross-Fit, learned to Surf, played plenty of basketball, gave birth to a baby at age 41 NATURALLY, hiked to the top of Cathedral Rock in Sedona, started a WellBeing Practice, taught classes on meditation and reiki, spoke at Hoag Hospital about the power of meditation and healing, and went back to work full-time to solely support my family of 4! Holy Moly!!! If I can do all that with this illness, I can surely heal it and feel 100% consistently!!!
I have honestly LIVED more of my LIFE in the last 8 years than I have in all of my 44. I have come to appreciate what I have more deeply than ever before. I feel completely supported and ALIVE as I move through this next journey to the Sunlight of the Spirit! I am eternally grateful for my DEEP RELATIONSHIP WITH MY HIGHER POWER! If I were to have this type of diagnosis even 2 years ago, I would have been terribly anxiety ridden and simply drowning in fear. Today, although a bit emotional, feel very peaceful.
Thank you for reading. My intention with all my blogs is to ignite a part of your soul that leads you to the journey within. To the place of utter joy and peace. May we all come to know who we are without all the shells we picked up along the way, and live FULLY!